Grace

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a : unmerited divine assistance given humans for their regeneration or sanctification

b : a virtue coming from God

c : a state of sanctification enjoyed through divine grace

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a : approval, favor <stayed in his good graces>

b archaic : mercy, pardon

c : a special favor : privilege <each in his place, by right, notgrace, shall rule his heritage — Rudyard Kipling>

d : disposition to or an act or instance of kindness, courtesy, or clemency

e : a temporary exemption : reprieve

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a : a charming or attractive trait or characteristic

b : a pleasing appearance or effect : charm <all the growth of youth — John Buchan>

c : ease and suppleness of movement or bearing

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—used as a title of address or reference for a duke, a duchess, or an archbishop

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: a short prayer at a meal asking a blessing or giving thanks

I give this definition for you to choose what Grace means to you on a daily basis.   I have had a very rough last month.   It started before last month but I will give you the short version and what Grace means to me.

If you have read any of my post you know that I had a biopsy in Nov of 2011 before a hysterectomy.  With that biopsy I was told I would have to have them every 4 to 6 months.

After being the plus one for my friend at the breast cancer support group I knew it was time for my regular biopsy.   On April 16th I had my mammogram as usual.   This would be a change I would mark for the rest of my life.   On the following Thurs I was asked to come back down to have a diagnostic exam..  A more detail look at my right breast.  I was then asked to go to the room and sit while the radiologist looks at my pictures to see if more were needed.  I sit in this room knowing that this would be the beginning of something I was not ready for. 

After ten very agonizing minutes the nurse comes back and says" Can you do a ultrasound today?"   I was thinking to myself "Sure that is what I want to be doing today!"  She said if you could wait 30 minutes we can fit you in.   FYI  I work at a Dr's office, when we work someone in that means something is not right and they want to see it STAT !  .. I politely told her I needed to step away from the situation.  I needed to go talk to my Dr.  I would come back in thirty minutes.  

My Doctor is the most caring, compassionate and giving person I have EVER worked for.  I am there because I believe in her and I would do anything for her.   She was waiting on me when I came back to the office. She could see the concern in my eyes and she gave me time to calm my nerves and went back down for the ultrasound.   I had taken my meds so I was calmer so I was more prepared.

After the diagnostic showed places on both breast my doctor call a specialist and she saw me that day to do a bedside ultrasound and explained what they saw.  I will say that is one of the perks of working for a Doctor who has a great relationship with her colleagues.   
From there I have had both Diagnostic and MRI led biopsies.   I would not wish the MRI Biopsy on anyone. I cried during the entire 4 hours.  Not from the pain but from just being poked on for the last month.  Then I felt His Grace take over me. I could not imagine what other women go through or what my cousin or co worker went through this past year.  I only know that His Grace sustains me and what ever this has for me it has for me.  I only ask you to get your mammograms and be persistent if you feel something.  I did not but I am blessed that I have a family of co workers, family and friends that cover me with love even when I don't think I deserve it.   I am in this season for a reason, to learn grow and share. And that is what I will do.